i had a bit of deja-vu as i titled this blog, i swear i have already posted this somewhere before. but anyways…

i was thinking today, life is practice, like we don’t even realize it but it is…

relationships, friendships, working, not working, drawing, painting, colouring, walking, working out, driving…

it is all practice, we get better as we go along, know which rules to break and which to not, our tolerance for the world shitting on us constantly grows and the things that used to annoy us greatly start to fade into mild irritation.

ofcourse we practice the bad parts too, those rules we break become easier to every time, we feel less and less guilt as time goes on. i think back to when everything that’d upset an elder was borderline blasphemic, an earth-shattering disobediance which would ruin the rest of my life…

respectful kids turn into disobediant punks also known as teenagers who just want to rebel against everything and cause as many dramatic situations as possible without ever being in the wrong. i probably did. whoever you are reading this probably read that line and felt that little weight at the bottom of your gut, the feeling of the written word breaking through your computer or ipod screen and pointing right in your face as you stand naked before it.

but we all learn to forgive ourselves too, life is filled with such important steps such as fucking up so badly you don’t deserve to be forgiven even by yourself…but then you do and it is small and you are larger than the situations you come across.

well, on that important note, thankyou for reading, see you in november.

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